Last night I had a dream that you really left me..
In this dream I begged to please not ever forget me
I’ll tell you how it began, so this is how it starts
You sat on my bed with tears in your eyes and your hand over my heart
You asked me what I was thinking about at the same time I asked why you were crying
You looked at me and said The doctor says I’m dying
I asked you what you meant and how this could really be,
That my father up above would take you away from me
I said NO!? this isn’t real, just when I’ve found the one!
Honey, Please, Tell me what to do.!
Tears rolled from my eyes and landed on your hands
You said Papoo, Please, don't make this harder. I took you to the hospital and
when we got there they did everything possible and you still died right there on the table.
I cried and cried and it felt so real.......
I woke up and realized you were already gone.
I tell myself from the dream only meant what happened was suppose to happen.
that no matter what I did that morning.. you'd still be gone today.
but somehow still doesn't make me feel any better. doesnt help me sleep any better at night.
doesn't help me when I look at my son and wonder how he feels knowing how I feel.....
don't get me wrong..... I am so thankful so thankful for the blessings in my life and to have the Gospel in my life. It has helped me sooo much with my mourning for Dino. gave me a better understanding of everything that is to come. better understanding of life. and what happens after life. I have a peaceful feeling inside me that Dino is okay. and I will be with him later when the time is right again. buuut in the mean time. I left on this emotional roller coaster.
